hi im new

hi hope everyone is well
im 23 years old and thought i would share my experience with you all
last year my best friend died in my arms after a very bad car crash wont go into details .
a few months after my friend passing away i was in a serious car crash where i broke my spine and damaged my hips very badly and other injuries too many to list , i managed to find the determination to walk again after encouragement from my friends and family .
it wasnt until 6 months later i got told i had ptsd , i see a counciler but refuse pills

not sure what else to say as i didnt want to sound like im moaning or dragging my life out as there are far more serious cases than mine

take care

Hi Willow

It is great that you joined this site. You will see that so many people experience pstd in many different ways and from many different causes. You are tremendous for having the strength and courage to get walking again. What an amazing achievement! I don't know how you are feeling or what symptoms you have but I know that understanding the condition is the best way of overcoming it.

I hope you are doing ok
S

Hello Willow,

I am sorry to hear of your friend dieing in your arms, that can not have been easy for you.

For you in turn to have become severely injured from a different car crash must also have been a very horrific experience.

Under no circumstances worry about sharing your experiences with us. Many of us are here today on this site because we too, have experienced life threatening experiences. I am very glad that like me you are hear to share your experience.

With you having been diagnosed with PTSD it will be a journey (in my own personal view) that you will travel and hopefully like me you will be able to deal with and come out on top.

Four months have passed since my own life was endangered, and during that period I experienced many times of feeling I would not get better, but I have.

I hope you do to.

We are however all different but I feel that time will be the healer.

Peter

Hello Willow,

Welome to the forum. I'm sure you'll find that you can come here any time and share your innermost thoughts and worries without fear of being judged. We've all come here through trauma and are trying to deal with the aftermath. You have done so well to have come as far as you have.

The main thing about this site is that you never need to feel alone, we're all experiencing the same thing, although every individuals symptoms are unique to them.

Be prepared to be in it for the long haul. You must be patient and not get distressed if it sometimes feels that you'll never recover. Some people are lucky and only seem to have symptoms for a short time; my symptoms, like so many other people here, have gone on for several years, with no sign so far of recovery. Don't get despondent and wonder what's wrong if you don't feel better overnight - everyone is different.

Take care,
Juli.

Willow,

I don't really know if I would still be here and not quietly or noisily nuts without this website at times. God what a terrible thing you have been through. Why on earth are you saying sorry? Sorry because you've seen horror, sorry because you've known sadness, sorry because there isn't a gauge to measure one persons dreadful happening against another? The problem is life sometimes sucks. You have had a couple of more than 'bad' breaks, but now you are on your way out of them again. Willow, I think this website is somewhere that sometimes you land in an attempt to rest amongst people who might understand and not judge. Nobody here does judge. It really is supportive, and I feel positive. Don't you dare say sorry. There are people on here who I understand have gone through things I could not but hate to imagine, but they are right there saying 'good on you Willow' for trying to get what's trapped inside you onto the outside of you. That's basically all everyone is trying to do, discuss the unimaginable. I had a great big 'vent' oneday here, went online nuts for a couple of paragraphs! Nobody knows who I am, just a disenfranchised middle-aged housewife with a wonderful child and dodgy husband (there surely can't be many of them out there) but I was honest and nasty and truthful, and I felt much better. Wouldn't you? Maybe not now, or today or tomorrow, but one day you might, and then guess what, there are a number of people of your age who are, or who have had, problems of a greater or lesser extent, and loads like me who still hope one day to dance naked on the beach again once all the stress has gone - i.e. we don't yet have one leg in the grave and still dream! People care here, so if you feel like it give it a try? I did, and am thankfull.

Warm hugs

Millie

thankyou all for the replys such a lovely welcome once im in the mood will proberly explain more about myself

Hi Willow,

And that's another thing - never feel you have to explain or tell anything you don't want to, everyone will support you no matter how little they know about you.

Take care,

Juli.

hi all
im slowely startin to accept that this is just the way things are sometimes even though my flashbacks are really tough to control and deal with every single day , my nightmares make me very ill because i can feel the pain i went through and it actually makes me pyhsically sick . sometimes i find it hard to be around people andf normally end up somewhere on my own i can just about manage being with two people at once but i wont let anyone close into my life as im too scared of losing them , im finding it very hard to adjust to my life now as i use a walking stick 95% of the time and its small things like rememberingot pace myself and getting used to people staring and asking questions . my council is very good though she has brought me a long way in the past few months currently having emdr i think it is called where your eyes follow there hand while you think of a bad memory its great its realy starting to work for me .
im havin a good patch at the min i love life im living it to the full in the summer i attempted to walk a mountain in germany think i managed 5 miles in the end half way up and back down again without a walking stick too .
im a very determind person but there have been many of times i nearlly ended my life i had a breakdown not long back where the police found me on the beach at 3am i dont remember how i got there or what i was doing there and i had harmed myself not proud of that moment , there have been other times i ahve tried to end my life too.

up until the time on the beach i was a ex self harmer before the accident i managed to stop doing it for 6 yrs then after the crash i couldnt help it currently i have not harmed for two months which i am proud of